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The blog returns.

More than a year since my last post. I've tried posting something new several times over that past year but in the end I never end up actually posting anything.

I think this will be my last post about my lack of posting/trying to revive my blog. I've done that too many times and it's going to be annoying to read. So much has changed in my life since I've last written here.

I'm married now. MARRIED. It's absolutely amazing, but what a change since my last post.

I'm going to get an iphone on the weekend. I'm super stoked but a part of me thinks back to an incarnation of a former self where I used to say, "I'm never getting an ipod or anything like that, mp3 players are all the same and this one just has the biggest marketing push behind it. It is selling 'Cool' to you in the best way." And now look at me, the epitome (say it: Epp-ee-tome. Haha!) of 'Cool thing to own', I'm getting an iphone.

And do you know what? I don't care, I'm so stoked to get an iphone. I know no-one read this at all anymore and posting here is just like sending my thoughts out into the inter-ether...the ether-webs... something like that. But for anyone whose shores this message does happen to wash upon (I've been using pirate facebook for too long it would seem.) can anyone tell me if it's worth jail-breaking your iphone? what's the advantage of doing so? I love to hack my own tech gear and an iphone seems like a perfect candidate, but I'm having trouble trying to find out what the specific advantages of doing it are.

And now, an unrelated reflection: a while back I lost a an external harddrive. I didn't actually lose it per se, but it did fall off a bed just after I had plugged it in to my lappy. It doesn't work at all any more, I think my only option is going to be an hd-recovery service, which I've actually gotten a quote on, and it is most likely going to be over $1000. I'd love to be able to just say F-it, but I can't. I could lose everything I've got on there, photos, movies, games, old school projects... But I can't lose my poems. They are on there too and it destroys my soul to think they may be gone, but 1000+ is a lot of money to me, especially now in my life, and the question is are my poems worth that much to me? of course they are I say, but I have yet to get it recovered. I want to so badly, but for now, that hard drive must stay and wait, locking away something extremely precious to me.

What is making this extra hard I guess is recently I've really been wanting to go through and read them, but I can't. I haven't been very prolific in a long time and historically, an easy way for me to reignite that flame in me is to read things that I have written in the past, but there is no way for me to do that anymore.

I guess maybe this is a call out again to anyone who reads this: if you have any of my poems in some kind of file, if you could e-mail whatever you have to me, it would really make my day.

alright, I've got to go to work now. Maybe if I find some time I can rummage through an old drawer of random school stuff and see if any loose poems have ended up in there.