This'll be interesting, since this whole "blogging community" is filled with cynics, I know I'll just be getting a shit storm upon me for this one but let's say I'm interested in standing in the hurricane.
So someone asks me why I'm feeling different today and I reply:
my apathy towards the world
my general loathing for all things happy
my resignation to a life of cynicism and pessimism because
it's just so much more comfortable having no expectations and tearing things down than
actually having the guts to feel and be positive. I can stay in my defensive shell of past hurts and repel everyone with my pain. Rather than try and be happy, I can just live in unhappiness all the time, that's what's going to happen anyway right?
And the best part is, from my pedestal of depression I can scoff at those who fruitlessly seek happines and act elitist over them because I have everything figured out and I know what's really worth spending all time dwelling on,
ALL THE BAD THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AND ALL THE INJUSTICES OF THE WORLD
that makes life worth living. MISERY IS ALL. LIFE IS PAIN. LIVE IN IT.
"wha? if you really feel that way, and can't be convinced otherwise, why not just kill yourself and end it if everything really is that crappy?.........WHY DO YOU LIVE?"
So someone asks me why I'm feeling different today and I reply:
my apathy towards the world
my general loathing for all things happy
my resignation to a life of cynicism and pessimism because
it's just so much more comfortable having no expectations and tearing things down than
actually having the guts to feel and be positive. I can stay in my defensive shell of past hurts and repel everyone with my pain. Rather than try and be happy, I can just live in unhappiness all the time, that's what's going to happen anyway right?
And the best part is, from my pedestal of depression I can scoff at those who fruitlessly seek happines and act elitist over them because I have everything figured out and I know what's really worth spending all time dwelling on,
ALL THE BAD THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED TO ME AND ALL THE INJUSTICES OF THE WORLD
that makes life worth living. MISERY IS ALL. LIFE IS PAIN. LIVE IN IT.
"wha? if you really feel that way, and can't be convinced otherwise, why not just kill yourself and end it if everything really is that crappy?.........WHY DO YOU LIVE?"
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