So I made this discovery about myself recently and it's borderline insane. When I'm out walking, or by myself, mulling over my life, I have a strong tendency to replay old conversation in my head and think about them. That's not the weird part, the crazy part is when I start talking to people and re-responding to things they have said, out loud. And the thing is I do it all the time SO MUCH. I could hardly control it. The moment I'd realize I was doing it, as soon as my mind would wander off, I'd just do it again. Yesterday, while walking by myself, some of what I said out loud was,
"You look very familiar to me" - I was thinking about someone I was first introduced to about three months ago.
"Kate, I talk to people when they're not around!" - I was going to meet Kate and I was thinking about this very subject.
"We're tight, Shaun" - I was thinking about an event we had conspired together close to two years ago. At this point, I actually thought of high-fiveing him and I almost did: the empty air around me that is.
The worst, however; is when I start expanding on a whole realm of thought or idea to someone. Not these one sentance little blurbs like above. Like when I start explaining my perceptions of how friendships have normally developed for me, complete with examples and further explination of terms and phrases I use that other people might misinterpret. I said this out loud, to kate once again, while I was walking back from her house by myself. I was ALONE on the street. Why do I do this?
I'm going nuts.
"You look very familiar to me" - I was thinking about someone I was first introduced to about three months ago.
"Kate, I talk to people when they're not around!" - I was going to meet Kate and I was thinking about this very subject.
"We're tight, Shaun" - I was thinking about an event we had conspired together close to two years ago. At this point, I actually thought of high-fiveing him and I almost did: the empty air around me that is.
The worst, however; is when I start expanding on a whole realm of thought or idea to someone. Not these one sentance little blurbs like above. Like when I start explaining my perceptions of how friendships have normally developed for me, complete with examples and further explination of terms and phrases I use that other people might misinterpret. I said this out loud, to kate once again, while I was walking back from her house by myself. I was ALONE on the street. Why do I do this?
I'm going nuts.
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