Well now here we go.
How long has it been? I could look it up, but I’d rather just get this out while I still have the drive to do this.
I’ve been recently overcome with waves and waves of nostalgia for the past. As I’ve been getting older, I’ve found myself more and more driven and even seemingly defined by nostalgia. I love nostalgia, and I wonder if it’s good for me? I’ve read some philosophical criticism of nostalgia that was quite compelling as a problematic indulgence. I could look that up now and link to it, “but I’d rather just get this out while I still have the drive to do this.”
maybe I find myself experiencing a kind of longing for the past as I’m now so very firmly in the “I’m a father” camp now. My life will forever be shaped, bounded and framed by that fact. And don’t get me wrong, this isn’t a longing to not be a father. This is very much my mission. But still, there’s this fascination that is drawing me.
It’s this same fascination that has made me decide to do this. I’ve been going through my old blog posts and it’s been a real trip. 12-14 years ago me. What a cool thing to have documented and to be able to revisit, warts and all. I would like to be able to keep doing this, but I’ve gotta make it happen myself.
I’ve been ramping up my social media activity for this reason as well. I want there to be a record. I want to be able to see it myself, maybe another 12-14 years from now. Who knows if they’ll still be around and accessible in this way.
A while back I got paranoid about how much personal information about me exists online, this blog being the prime suspect in that paranoia. I made every post ever a “draft” again, thus effectively taking the whole thing offline. (Though if you know the internet, there are simple ways to see it all again, complete in it’s former glory. I could explain that here now, “but I’d rather just get this out while I still have the drive to do this.”)
I will be reviewing my old posts and re-posting them as I see fit. There’s some shit in there that is just way too embarrassing, personal or I’m just plain not proud of to have so openly on the interwebs. It’s a different web than it was back in 2004-2006. The shit you do here matters way more now than it did then. Unfortunately, by turning them all into drafts, I have lost their exact original post times, just the dates. There are ways of finding that out though. Maybe I'll do that...
So yeah. Here we go again. How many posts until I decide to abandon this venture yet again? Hahaha…
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