We Shared a Meal

Feeling strange these days. So much to do, and I'm doing it. I'm doing it all and it feels good.

But inside, yearning. I miss playing guitar and signing. I haven't written a song in a while and though it never became a cathartic experience for me like poetry used to be, I miss it.

I've currently been obsessed with Hot Dad. And I definitely went thought a Bill Wurtz phase a while back too. Why do I like all these strange musicians? Silly songs with serious musical talent behind them? I've always been a fan of Weird Al, is this just an extension of that impulse, whatever that is? Who knows. We Shared a Meal is Dance-tastic. La de da de da de da de day oh is wonderful. I have playlists of my favourites from each artist.

I would link to those playlists here, but that kinda shit just doesn't last. Looking back through my old posts, so many of the things I linked to don't exist any more. The best way to preserve seems to be to re-post it right here, probably in text form. I'll have to find an easy way to do that.

BOOM FOUND IT! ScreenShot OCR FTW!

Bill Wurtz Playlist (in no particular order):

1. And the Day Goes On
2. Outside
3. Movie Star
4. La de Da de Da de Da de Day 0h
5. Hello Sexy Pants
6. Alphabet Shuffle
7. Got to Know What's Going On
8. Mount St. Helens Is About to Blow Up
9. When I Get Older
10. I'm Best Friends With My Own Front Door
11. School
12. Hallelujah
13. Long Long Long Journey
14. At the Airport Terminal
15. We Could Just Get High 

Hot Dad Playlist  (in no particular order):

1. Suckin' on My Tendies
2. We Shared a Meal
3. Gimme the Girls
4. Watch Me Impress You
5. Girl Touch
6. We Stayed Up Late Together
7. Our Parents Met (For the First Time)
8. Big Money Salvia
9. I Really, Really, Really Like This Image
10. Can You Talk to People Around the World on the Internet
11. Penis Tip
12. Bring Me All of Your Teeth   
13. Fun Time Laser Intercourse Beasts
14. The Problem (Lies in My Son and Wife)
15. My Tape
16. A Christmas Shortcut
17. Elon Musk (Cars in Space)
18. Rabbits Are (Cool and Fun)
19. Just Tell Me What Font to Pick (When I'm Making Websites for Kids)
20. I Like Love
21. KFC (Waiting for Me)
22. Never Not Fuck
23. Too Much Fun
24. My Grandson   
25. Hardee's (I Wanna Go and Eat At)
26. I Love Never Changing My Clothes
27. Harambe (Back to Life)
28. I Love Websites
29. Internet Dreams
30. Web Love
31. R.I.P. Meme (feat. FrankJavCee)
32. No Sex, No Laid
33. The Star Wars (I'm in Love With)
34. I Don't Have a Sense of Smell   

So what are mannerisms? I've noticed myself changing in subtle ways, handling myself just a little bit differently. I think it started with Move Your DNA by Katy Bowman. For my alignment: feet, knees, legs, pelvis, hips, back and neck, I've started standing, walking, sitting and climbing stairs differently. And I like the way I feel when I do it. I like the way my legs feel when I walk. I love the way my ass feels on stairs. I love having the freedom to sit in more and different ways.

But this change seems to now have extended to even the way I handle objects. I don't know how to describe it but I notice it as different. At the same time both from within me, and surprising to me. Both natural and somehow unnatural. Mannerisms seem to me to be actions learned and practiced so long ago that they feel natural. But how "natural" is that? Spend long enough on any new thing and it will start to feel natural, too. I think that's just how our brains work for most things. Everything can be up for review, at any time.

I hope I keep changing, keep remaining open to experience. I don't want to stagnate and never evolve or stop being able to change my mind.